23 Ways We Both Turned Our Love Toxic
By Nikita Gill
- I was still holding onto a past war in my arms, and I never quite let it go, not even for you.
- I nurtured my demons more than I nurtured our love.
- You hated the way you glimpsed the women you loved before me once too often in my eyes, my hair, my manner.
- We ruined each other in unspeakable ways and called it love.
- We played hide and seek with our loyalties one too many times.
- One of us had a softer heart than the other.
- We took turns being the victim and the abuser.
- You kept planting flowers of hope inside me but then destroying them in your anger.
- I wore my temper like a natural disaster – quick and devastating.
- …and I always left you alone in the aftermath to pick up the pieces.
- We both walked into this thinking the other could heal us.
- I am beautiful broken but you thought fixing me would make me prettier.
- You chose me when you saw my hunger. My hunger never left us, no matter how much you fed me love.
- You loved me in a language I never took the time to learn.
- We weren’t meant to drag each other out of our own wreckage, yet we did it over and over again.
- Some loves were not planted in the right soil to grow.
- We turned our relationship into a burden that weighed us down instead of buoyed us up.
- We both tasted once too often of tragedy that we never spoke of.
- You eventually began to taste damage in my kisses.
- I became myself and you didn’t like her enough to stay.
- We had too many wounds from too many battles that had not healed right to make this work.
- We played keep away with our trust too often.
- In the end, there were no Gods to save us. We had killed them all.