If All We Have Is Now, I Want To Make It Count

The world moves so fast now. Some days, it feels like slowly down is never going to be an option. We’re all coming and going, saying goodbye too slowly or too quickly. Letting our guard down to the wrong people.

Sometimes, the timing just isn’t right and there’s nothing that anyone can do to change that.

We fall for the wrong people, we get up and try over and over again. But that’s the thing.

If it’s really supposed to happen, there won’t be any second guessing, no hesitation.

Sometimes, we all have to learn to live in the moment, as scary as that might be. There are moments where we have to let ourselves lift up and take off.

I guess what I’m really trying to say is that if this is all we have, these tiny moments, I’m willing to accept that.

I don’t need a plan. I don’t need to know what’s going to happen tomorrow or next week or next year. I don’t know need to overthink why our paths crossed. Why we wandered into one another’s lives.

All I need to know is that it happened. And I’m so thankful that it did.

It doesn’t make sense of course to hold on too long to someone that might have an expiration date. To someone that could be here today and gone tomorrow.

But I’ve learned that everything happens for a reason. People don’t enter our lives on accident and you are no different.

I think that whatever time we have, whatever this looks like, we just need to embrace it. For what it is and who we are.

I’ve spent so much time thinking about the things I have no control over, trying to rework my life so that it has some kind of resolution, some final point that will force everything together.

But then I met you and the pieces kind of just fell into place. I don’t need to have everything figured out. All I know is that you and I matter.

That we mean something.

And if it that’s the only thing that comes out of this whole big, messy thing, I have no doubt that I can find a way to love that.