To The Dad I Wished I Had
You never failed to make me feel like I had something to fall back on if everything else went to shit. You never failed to remind me that there was a home away from home I could go to if I ever needed a place to breathe.
You never failed to make me feel like I had something to fall back on if everything else went to shit. You never failed to remind me that there was a home away from home I could go to if I ever needed a place to breathe.
I’m tired of feeling like I have to explain myself if I’m caught with Marie Claire in my hands, like it’s such a big fucking deal. Should I start carrying some Hemingway as a backup, to prove that I’m not nearly as stupid as you think I am?
You begin making excuses for something that you’d usually never overlook. He/She only smokes at night, it’s not an addiction I can handle it.
The tears we cried together were beautiful because neither of us wanted to lose the other but the fallout was inevitable. Our story in just words would not give it justice. You had to be there. We were so happy together. We chose each other, and it became an almost unhealthy obsession.
You may be young and in love, and that is a beautiful thing. I mean it. Treasure your love. Be good to each other. But know that love is not enough.
I learned that I don’t care what you think of me, but more importantly what I know about myself. I know that I’m better off in so many ways, and I know that I’m even better by not knowing you. I know that I am someone fully capable of loving from the depths of my soul because I still love the one who broke my heart so many times.
Decorations. I love snuggling up on my couch with all the Christmas lights on and the tree beautifully lit.
December is my favorite month because of this.
If you think that is sort of a social punishment for smokers, I’ll object, first because it didn’t make me (or anyone I presume) want to quit smoking and second because you didn’t punish men smokers. Or if you think you’ll telling us through that look that smoking isn’t at all pretty moreover healthy for us, I am telling you once again, we know.
And then things cooled way down. Like I knew they would. We went from the highest high to a flatline in less than a month.
I am not broken from my bruises. I am not defeated from his words. When the moment comes, and you are…