I Don’t Have The Energy To Fight For You Anymore
I am sick of the chase.
I am sick of the chase.
I am worried about letting my guard down, letting you see the real me, and then having you run away, disgusted by the truth.
You are the one thing I have figured out. The one thing that I have done correctly. The one thing I would never change.
Sometimes, I will sit in my towel for hours to avoid leaving the house.
Even though you never said sorry without an addendum, never admitted to any wrongdoing without adding an excuse, no one ever forced you to yell. No one ever forced you to cheat or lie or lash out. You chose to do those things.
We never sewed a label onto our relationship, but I loved you like you were already mine.
You turned me into someone who assumes the worst case scenario to be true, someone fidgety and afraid.
You can either commit to me or you can quit me.
When you love someone more than yourself, you have to be careful, because it’s easy to forget what you deserve. It’s easy to become too trusting. It’s easy to let your guard down. It’s easy to give them more than they have actually earned.
I am proud of myself for walking away, but it seems like everyone else hates me for it.