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I wouldn’t know what to say to you. I would end up embarrassing myself by stumbling over my words. Or it would be the one day when I’m dressed down, looking like I just rolled out of bed.

I feel like I have waited long enough. I deserve an answer. I deserve to know how you feel about me.

I will become addicted to the thought of someone. The only thing that will make me happy is a text from their number. The only thing that will get me out of bed is the thought of seeing them that day.

I had trouble moving on from you because you were always around. I never had a break from you. I never had an opportunity to push you out of my mind and focus on someone else. You were a distraction.

I’m not trying to hurt you. I am only trying to protect myself. 

You just have to remember that missing him does not mean you should text him. It does not mean you should give him another chance. It does not mean you should forget about all of the bad times you had together. 

Caring too much means I will love you with every little piece of my heart. I will try my hardest not to hurt you. I will aim to be the reason why you smile and avoid being the reason why you cry. I will treat you the way you deserve to be treated, because if I took advantage of you in any way, I would hate myself for it. 

I have reached a realization. A realization that my standards are too low. A realization that I should expect more from the people surrounding me.