Get up in the morning and take a steaming hot shower. Cleanse away your dead skin cells until you are tomato red. Scrub at your hair and wash off all the ways he used to touch you. Wash away his fingers and his hands and his lips. Rinse. Lather. And repeat.
You’re very careful and cautious in every aspect of your life. You’re not a risk taker. You hate doing anything that could potentially put your life at risk or make your heart race uncontrollably. You don’t like doing anything out of your comfort zone and are content staying in your own bubble.
1. Many people call you a ‘workaholic’. Your friends and family tend to tell you to relax more and take a…
She loves being single because she gets to be selfish. In her life, with herself and in her career. She gets to do as she pleases, to live life to the fullest with someone pushing her down. She gets to be the selfish one this time. She gets to be the one to call the shots.
Anxiety makes me feel like I can never say ‘yes’ to plans. It overwhelms me with to do lists and unchecked boxes in my brain that tell me that I can never relax. It’s always making me sprint to the finish line, and run until my legs go numb.
I’m constantly flooded with my anxiety screaming at me that it’s not worth it. And that I should give up on finding love. To just stop, because I’m broken.
You very slowly let yourself open up to him. Once a few months have passed, you start letting your guards down. You know deep down that he deserves to know all of you, even the flaws and imperfections. He deserves to know all of you, even if you’re petrified for him to see all of you.
You’re obsessed with watching the news on new health scares. You’re addicted to anything health related. Your go to tv show is ‘House’, and instead of watching political issues on the news, your eyes are glued to health related breaking news.
You can’t sit back and wait for your world to turn around. You can’t sit back and patiently watch the clock tick by while you remain stagnant. You’ve got to tackle your demons head on. You’ve got to look at your problems right now instead of expecting them to magically disappear.
Anxiety is climbing a steep mountain through a blizzard. It’s trying to swim in a tsunami. It’s trying to breathe where trees have stopped growing. It’s trying to stay alive in the Sahara desert. It’s trying so hard to smile when tears flood your face. It’s trying so hard to be okay when you’re not okay.