I pushed him as much as I could out of his comfort zone and into mine because that thought of how I had always thought love should be. The thought that maybe he would change and maybe I could have the best of every angle, blinded me.
You’re reflecting on the past, which won’t ever be again. Even if they were to leap back into your life, they wouldn’t be the same, and neither would you.
I fought with myself for months trying to combat my weight and please some guy that I felt obligated to be with. He was familiar and he reminded me of home. But what wasn’t familiar anymore, was who I was.
Thank you for teaching me that changing myself and altering who I was will never be the answer. Because you made me feel like I’d never be enough, I was able to be enough for myself.