Forgive Me For Letting You Go


I fell in love with you on a bleak rainy day because you pointed to the sun when all I saw were dark clouds. You become the hope of my tomorrow whom I’ll put on the reality of today. You’ve been my favorite hello and my hardest goodbye. You taught me that if it’s meant to be, it will find a way. You’ve been my strength, my freedom, my sunshine and my happiness.

Then all of a sudden, everything was falling down the cliff and all that was left was our bittersweet past and I realized that some people are not destined to stay, but only to teach us something new.

Every time you gave me that look, it didn’t make me want to live up to my own standards, but to live with yours. You we’re the missing lego block to my structure which would complete me. But now you’re gone like a bubble being popped by a kid, like a speck of dust being blown by the wind and like the mirror being shattered into pieces.

Now, I need to learn how to live without you. Without your precious smile and your glittery eyes that made me wonder if you’re truly the one. This second proved to me you’re not. That you’re just another person passing by my life to teach me how to be a better and stronger person.

It hurts.

It hurts like hell.

Just the thought of waking up in the morning without your good morning text kills me. But that’s pain, it demands to be felt.

The fault isn’t in the stars, it’s in ourselves.

I’ve decided to believe the fact that you’re not mine anymore and realized that I need to move on. To face another sunrise without you by my side. I can cope with it, you taught me how to. I’ll live with it because that’s the right thing to do.

I want you to know that even if I detach from you, and you from me, I’ll still care. Sometimes, I wonder if I’m still in love with you or just in love with the feeling of love itself, but I still do. It’s really true, you can never lose the love for the person who made you feel like the brightest star in the night sky and the best piece of coral underneath the sea.

I’ll forever love you. You’ve become my good addiction.

Please do me a favor, look for the person who is more fitted to you than me. I hope you find that person who will hold you very careful like an antique vase. I hope you find the person who will give you the wings to soar and I hope this person decides to fly with you. I hope you find someone that really deserves you as much as you deserve them. I really hope you find that person.

Maybe we’ll meet again, when we are slightly older and our minds are less hectic, and I’ll be right for you and you’ll be right for me. But right now, I am chaos to your thoughts and you are poison to my heart.