I Don’t Want Half Your Heart, I Want The Whole Damn Thing

I don’t want to be the girl you text when you’re drunk. I don’t want to be the girl you make plans with when the rest of your friends are busy. I don’t want to be the girl you flirt with when no one better is in the room.

I don’t want half of your heart. 

I would rather have you walk away and never speak to me again than only be there half the time. I don’t want someone who is inconsistent, unpredictable. Someone who will treat me like a queen one day and ignore me the next day.

I’m not interested in boys who send mixed signals. I’m only interested in boys who put in effort.

I don’t want to be your almost. The girl you claim you miss, but never make plans to see. The girl who is much more than a friend, but you never turn into your girlfriend.

I deserve someone who gives me their full attention, even when I am not around. Someone who thinks about me all the time. Someone who texts me the second they open their eyes in the morning. Someone who brags to their friends about me. Someone who can’t stop smiling when I pop into their head.

I deserve someone who appreciates me, not someone who takes me for granted. 

I have been in one-sided relationships before and I am not willing to go there again. I don’t want to be the only person trying. The only person who cares whether the love becomes stronger or weaker.

I’m not going to text you first if you never initiate conversations yourself. I’m not going to drive to your place if you never drive to mine. I’m not going to go down on you if you never return the favor.

I’m not going to treat you like my boyfriend when you’re treating me like just another girl. 

If you aren’t going to become my official boyfriend because you aren’t ready for a relationship right now or because you have other things to focus on, then you can walk away, because I am not interested in making a compromise. I refuse to settle for half of what I want when I can have it all.

It doesn’t matter how much I like you, because I am not going to enter another almost relationship. I am holding out for something real, something that has the potential to last a lifetime. 

I am not going to accept midnight texts when I want morning texts. I am not going to accept Netflix invites when I want date nights. I am not going to accept a casual relationship when I want a committed relationship.

I am not going to accept your half-ass effort when I want every ounce of your love.

I’m sorry, but I don’t want half of your heart. I want the whole damn thing. You might think that makes me greedy, but it only makes me smart. It makes me a girl with high standards.