If You Know Nothing Else, Know That I Loved You


Sitting on my bed all by myself with no texts or calls from you, I think how did we get here? Where did we go wrong? What did we miss?

Our love was something that people spoke about, envied and wished they had. The kind of love people pray for, the kind of love that makes your heart sink because you are completely and absolutely happy with each other. The kind of love people write movies about.

But all good things must come to an end. And that is what we had, something really amazing. Something that I can hardly explain with my words. Something I hope everyone gets to experience. We were so much alike and foolishly in love, invested in something we thought would last. Hoping and praying for the best, but then again it was too good to be true.

The time we had together, even though it was short was one of the best experiences of my life.

Thank you for showing me how real- love can be, thank you for pushing me to be a better version of myself, for pushing me to see how much I can do for myself.

For helping me see the world in a different way. Thank you for teaching me that there’s more to love than physically being together, thank you for trusting in me and investing in me, thank you for loving me.

And lastly thank you for letting me go, for now I am going to pick up the pieces you broke from my already broken heart, glue them together and restart my journey of finding true love again.

What we had was amazing and completely real, but it wasn’t good enough for us to keep going was it? Maybe someday we would be together again. When the time and place is right. But that day is not today.

So for now I’m going to let you be. And let my heart heal.

I’m going to focus on making myself a better person. Teach myself how to grow without you and allow myself to accept the fact that you cannot handle a complicated girl like me. I am going to focus on my happiness rather than depending completely on you. I am going to focus on being successful and competent by myself, like how I was before I met you. I am going to find the happiness I’ve been looking for and pray that I find the kind of love that we had- or something better, and I hope you do too.