Lean Into Your Light And Never Look Back
The thought of you makes me nauseous
I used to feel like a boomerang with you
Trying, fighting for your attention and approval
But you never intended on loving me
You didn’t care
You knew my biggest fears
You asked for the key to the chamber I vowed to never open
The chamber to my mind where only my heart could be accessed
The place where happiness goes to die
Because fear has protected me from these emotions
From these tears and countless hours of crying
About you, about love, about the loss of my identity
From countless distractions that were only caused by worthless men
You never cared
So why did I believe you?
The painful truth wants to keep me asleep to not think of the wasted time
I was a slave to the idea of us
Defying generational curses with the four letter word I feared: love
Not anymore
Thank God for the clarity
Thank Him for the lessons
Pick yourself up and move forward
It takes time, but happiness is possible
Lean into your light and never look back.
To the girl scared of love
To the girl who thinks love is weak
The strong girl scared to be seen and see herself
To the girl who seeks her worth from others instead of your creator
To the girl scared to open up
To the girl who foolishly put all her eggs in one basket
To the girl who could not trust her heart because her mind protected her all these years
To anyone that fears rejection
To anyone that felt the disconnection spin their life out of control
To the one that believed their words but ignored their actions
Despite all the barriers you have created to protect your emotions
You too are capable of love
You too are worthy
You too deserve the world and an experience to love without suffering first
To all that can relate, love yourself first with intention.