Let Love In (Even When You’re Trying To Avoid It)
When you are intentionally trying to hide from intimacy
Trying not to fall for someone
Trying not to let someone in
And you’re trying to learn to be alone
Trying to learn how to be single and enjoy it
When you’re finally learning to put yourself first
You’re starting to become comfortable by yourself
And then someone comes into your life
and starts to make you feel things
Starts to crack you open
Start to gently break down the walls that you built up
The walls that you intentionally built up high
The walls that meant to try to protect you
Meant to try to shelter you
Meant to heal you from the past lovers that hurt you
And then someone comes in and cracks you wide open
And you start to feel the cracks in the walls you built up high
You start to feel something again
It makes you feel like you want to run
Like you want to hide
Like you want to make them leave
Like you want to intentionally try to do things to ruin this feeling
Because you can’t even imagine this working out
You can’t imagine someone getting close to you again
Someone getting so close to you again
And allowing someone into your heart again
because there is nothing scarier than allowing someone into your life again
It might feel as if you want to run away
But you need to remember
Why shelter yourself behind the walls you built
Why prevent yourself from being cracked open
Why shield yourself from feeling something again
When there is the possibility of something good happening from it
Whether it be for a few days, or a few months or years
Please don’t stay hidden behind the walls you built from past lovers
From past lovers who weren’t able to love you the way you needed
Please don’t remain sheltered from the possibility of something incredible happening
From something that might make you feel happy
Something that might make you joyful and peaceful and amazed all at once
Please don’t let the world harden your heart and keep you hidden behind the walls you built
Because you are afraid of being open again
Nothing ever wonderful happened from being content in life
From being content being hidden and sheltered and stagnant in this life
Allow yourself to break free from the walls you built up so high
Allow yourself to let someone else into your world
Into your heart
And into your life again