This Is What I Really Mean When I Say, ‘I Love You’

Do you ever just love someone?

And when I say love, I don’t mean you want to kiss that someone. Love means you choose to kiss that someone’s lips and soul until you taste the blood of his veins then you kiss him deeper.

And when I say love, I don’t mean you want to hold his hand. Love means you choose to hold his hand, intertwine your fingers, and never let go until your hands become rough because you worked hard in sculpting each other’s faces in your memories.

And when I say love, I don’t mean you want to talk to him. Love means you choose to talk with him; you listen because words are engraved in our hearts and you value what he has to say because somewhere between the lines are underlying stories of who he is.

And when I say love, I don’t mean you want to go out with him. Love means you choose to go out with him because you think that time should be spent on people who are worthy to share your life with and he’s one of those people for you.

And when I say love, I don’t mean you want to make memories together. Love means you choose to make memories with him and no matter how hard the world tries to make the memories fade, you don’t let it happen; you choose to hold on to what you have went through with him.

And when I say love, I don’t mean you want to support him in his journey. Love means you choose to support him and you stand by him, despite the failure and success, because you have a clear understanding of who you love and it’s him, not his possessions.

And when I say love, I don’t mean you want to be with him. Love means you choose to be with him every single day; and the day can be good or bad but you don’t care because a day means being with him and that single fact makes everything bearable and fine.

And when I say love, I don’t only mean any of this. Love means having no words to explain just how much you mean to me and how much you make me ache inside. So no, I don’t think I just love someone. It’s more than love.

It will always be more than love and forgive me for not having the words to encompass my lack of words.