You Don’t Deserve My Heart When All You Do Is Break It

You don’t deserve my love. You don’t deserve my affection. You don’t deserve my attention. You don’t deserve my investment.

You don’t deserve my commitment because I don’t have yours. You don’t deserve being a priority of mine when I’m an option to you. And you don’t deserve to be my partner or my best friend; my ultimate companion.

You don’t deserve to know me when I barely know you. You don’t deserve to learn about my story, understand my past and appreciate the person I am. You don’t deserve to get to know my hopes, fears, what gets me going, and what I love the most. You don’t deserve to get intimate with my thoughts or feelings. And You don’t deserve to meet my family or be friends with my friends.

You don’t deserve to see me naked. You don’t deserve to see me tired at the end of the day. You don’t deserve to see me vulnerable in my weakest moments. And you don’t deserve to see me in my happiest moments either.

You don’t deserve my texts, my phone calls, or my snapchats when you ignore them or take forever to respond. You don’t deserve to be the first and last thing on my mind. You don’t deserve to be the one I call when something terrific or terrible happens. You don’t deserve to witness my success and you don’t deserve to see me on the edge of glory. Just like you don’t deserve me worrying about you, wondering if you’re going to be okay, praying that everything works out for you.

Honey, you don’t deserve my kindness because all you do is think of yourself. You don’t deserve my forgiveness because your mistakes aren’t mistakes, they are choices. You don’t deserve my unconditional love because all you do is judge me.

You don’t deserve my words of encouragement. You don’t deserve my compliments. You don’t deserve me watching over your shoulder. You don’t deserve me proving to you that real things exist like love, friendship and loyalty. You don’t deserve my heart when all you do is break it. You don’t deserve my respect when you keep drowning me in disappointment. You don’t deserve my words when what you give me is silence and many, many broken promises.

You really don’t deserve my blind trust in you. You don’t deserve my endless faith in what you can accomplish. You don’t deserve the genuine intentions I have for you.

You don’t deserve this privilege. You don’t deserve this blessing. You don’t deserve this gift. And you, you don’t deserve me. You never did. And I’m afraid you never will.