You’ll Always Be The One Who Got Away, But I’m Okay With That
By Becca Martin
I still find your memory running through my mind. I can’t get you out of my head and it’s been nearly six months since I’ve seen you last. It’s been six months and I still think about you constantly. You’re the one who got away. You became the one person I never got enough of.
I never got enough time with you; there were so many more parts of you I wanted to explore, but never got the chance to. The worst part is I blame myself, I chose to wander when all you wanted to do was stay. We had no other options than to go our separate ways.
My heart broke the day you said to me we’d probably never see each other again, and since that day I’ve always hoped that wasn’t true.
I can’t help but believe that if we’re meant to be together we will be. So for now, that is why I’m okay with you being the one who got away.
Whenever I start feeling lonely I think of the times we shared together because those times were everything I could have asked for. I think of you when I’m thinking of someone new, when I’m thinking about my future and when I’m thinking about home. You’re always there in the back of my mind.
Your memory burns like a wildfire through my mind. I’ve been trying to fight it, slow it down, but it just keeps spreading.
I remember lying in your arms the last night we spent together. We were talking about our greatest fears, you planning to join the military and me with a one-way ticket around the world. We both knew we had to respect each other’s wishes and move on in our own ways.
You told me everything was going to be okay, you told me things would all work out and what’s meant to happen will. I put my trust in that, and in you. I hope you’re right because nothing ever felt as good as my time with you.
You felt like home to me. When I was with you I felt safe. I felt like nothing bad could ever happen when I was wrapped in your arms. I felt like you would protect me because I know you would. You had a sense of care in your heart that was rare, yet so important.
When I think of you I’ll always think of happiness. We never had a bad moment together and just the sight of you lit up my whole world. I wish we had forever together, but the world doesn’t always give you what you want. I know our paths crossed for a reason because knowing you has made me a better person.
For that short period of time our lives intertwined I knew you would leave an impact on me. You taught me what it felt like to be with someone who truly cares about me. You taught me what it felt like to feel safe and find comfort just by being with another soul. You gave me hope for the future, even though I’m convinced you’re one in a million.
I’ll be forever thankful for the impact you had on my heart. It hasn’t been the same since you’ve come and gone from my life, but I mean that in the best way possible.