‘I’m kind of gay.’ I whispered. It was the first time I said that sentence, which would become my default sentence for coming out to anyone from complete strangers to my best friends, out loud.
They always say ‘you’re too good, you deserve better.’ If I’m too good, why don’t I deserve what I want?
You pull me close, then you push me away. You lie to me. You tell me that everyone is better than me. Then you pour your soul out to me and thank me. You are the definition of mixed signals.
So basically I have taken all the classes from him I can. He fucks me, and I end up with As.
If you and I will ever come out of this alive, we need to stop the war against each other, and fight for each other, arm in arm, hand in hand and empty shell to empty shell. We are wounded, we are scarred, but we are not alone.
I will unbutton all your fears and sorrows, and take them off your mind. I will unzip all the insecurities, and pull them out of you, with a fierce gentleness.
The bible says love is patient, love is kind – but it doesn’t really tell you when’s the right time to let go of the love you’re still holding on to.
The truth is, we were hopelessly codependent for so long that we didn’t even realize it until it was too late.
We did share hopes of a life together, didn’t we?The beginning was still beautiful. We collided for a bit, and I tasted a world untouched by human hands – you always had a mind of your own. I loved that about you.
You may be a pain in the ass, but you’re my pain in the ass.