Relationships are rocky. Whether it be your friend that you’ve known since grade school or the significant other you’ve been off and on with for a few years now. Everyone around our age is stressing about their own issues.
Create your own lane and stay in it. Become a success by capitalizing on what makes you unique. Don’t strive to be trending, strive to be interesting.
As I left, you gave me your number and kissed me at the door. That was my first mistake, to take the number of a should’ve been a one-night stand.
There is also no immaturity to deal with. You don’t have to deal with guys getting so butt hurt about you ending things that they block you from Snapchat, Instagram, Facebook, and every other possible social media outlet you had them on, then texting you every single day weeks later asking for a second chance.
You take advantage of his innocence, manipulating this beautiful specimen into doing things for you. You never go to his place, since it’s dirty and he has a roommate. You make him trek a half hour to you, actually, you make him do everything.
My world used to revolve around this beautiful boy, someone whom I thought was the epitome of forever, someone whom I deemed ‘the one’. I cared so much more for him than I ever did care for myself. I loved him more than I should have loved myself and in that, I lost myself.
“I am giving myself permission to not think for the next hour,” I scribbled in my notebook. The jerking of the train made it difficult to write. “Everything will be waiting for me when I return.”
Like a train headed off a cliff, we’re getting closer to this reality everyday. Right now, everything we could want or need is a click away. Bored? Netflix. Hungry? GrubHub. Horny? Redtube.
No one can ever imagine what this sort of pain can do to you, the state of shock that it puts you in and never releases you from, not even for a moment of clarity. You’re torn, you think, between what you had and what you’re left with. But, in truth, you’re torn apart.
Try new things out. Build a new hobby. Like cooking, reading, dancing, blogging, or absolutely anything! It’s always nice to have your mind occupied with interesting things rather than curling up in the bed with your week-old pajamas lamenting.