She has learned how much socializing she can handle before she needs to take a break. She has learned when to leave a party early. She has learned how to avoid unwanted conversations. She has learned how to deal with her anxiety as best as she can.
Your smile will reform. Your thoughts will spin from negative to positive. Your vision will refocus so you are able to see the beauty in the world and the beauty hidden within your marrow.
She doesn’t want to hear excuses about how you really like her and could imagine dating her in the future but the timing isn’t right.
I’m letting my body rot because I don’t have enough energy to brush my hair or take a shower or answer my friends who keep asking me how I’ve been doing.
Don’t keep people in your world who make you feel like you aren’t good enough. Like you are difficult to love. Like you are bothering them with your attention.
For the rest of your life, you will have to continue pouring your heart into what you’re doing. You will have to work your hardest every damn day. You will have to be productive, even when you feel like hitting snooze.
Watching such a strong, smart, beautiful woman settle for less than she deserved taught me valuable lessons. It taught me to raise my standards. It taught me to shove away my insecurities. It taught me to think more of myself.
It’s stressful being the one who cares more. The one who bends over backwards. The one who gives and gives and gives.
I don’t put off working on myself until the end of the year. I don’t wait until everybody starts preaching self-care to focus on myself.
Without you in my world, I don’t overthink as much. I don’t doubt myself as much. I actually feel confident for a change. I feel like I have my shit together. I feel like I am doing well for myself.