I’d Rather Be Forever Alone And Happy, Than To Settle For Less Than I Deserve
You are always going to be your forever. You will always be able to wake up with just yourself, and choose to have a good day. No other person can decide that for you.
You are always going to be your forever. You will always be able to wake up with just yourself, and choose to have a good day. No other person can decide that for you.
I used to plant gardens
on our grave
and watered it with your leftover tears
but they shriveled into dust and
dried out promises.
Just like us.
Sometimes you just need to take a break from looking and you need to take a break for your own sanity. To put it bluntly, dating can be exhausting, and downright cruel.
Love, is the only thing that we have at the end of the day. It’s truly the only thing that matters in this world. So please, give the definition of love some justice. And if you feel it, say it. And if you don’t feel it, then say it. It’s time to stop hiding our feelings in fear, and it’s about damn time we give love a chance.
Maybe soulmates are supposed to leave us after all. And maybe the point of them isn’t to die without them, it’s to keep on going. You see, the point of a soulmate is to grow strong enough that you can live without them. And you can keep on surviving.
Now, years without your nourishment
I still stand tall.
I don’t droop anymore.
I don’t wilt with you
on my back.
I remember the night when you ended it.
You ended it with a grimace
written on your face.
I said no over and over again.
But you ended it anyway.
This is how I became happy without you. I kept on living. I kept on breathing shallow breaths until they weren’t so forced anymore. I kept on taking baby steps until they became long strides again.
Funny thing is –
All I write about is you
and it’s always navy blue and fogged up.
Your laughter still hums to me in the
background as I type away.
You don’t regret anything that happened in the past because you learned so much about yourself in the process. You don’t hold on to the broken parts of yourself anymore. You are free from your demons.