I Do Not Want To Love You, But I Do
In this wild reeling world, you are my only stability as I cling onto you for support.
In this wild reeling world, you are my only stability as I cling onto you for support.
Think of how you survived it all. And you will again.
I am a practical girl. I will not invest in something with no outcome. I will not waste my time in trying to convince you to love me.
There is a strange liberation in solitude and leading your own life. The emotions and thoughts of others no longer suffocate me. I finally get to breathe and draw calm, collected inhales and exhales feeling a deep sense of elusive peace inside me.
Even when my heart is gasping open in blood, when my eyes are blinded with tears, when my mind is gone as the wind, when I am between hell and the dark abyss, when I am lying lifeless on the floor, I will still choose love above all else.
The desire I have for you is overflowing my veins. Oh how I wish to trace my fingertips across your face and be taken away by your breathtaking beauty- your sharp jaw, the firm lines behind your eyes, and the way you light up my day with your half reluctant shy smile.
You are like a hurricane, forceful and capable of bringing me destruction and ruin.
How do I see the goodness and positivity radiating from everyone I meet when you- so pure and holy and unworldly cruelly rippled my heart out without any remorse?