To The One Who Could Not Stay
You left, but so much of you still exists.
You left, but so much of you still exists.
You deserve a love that is constant, that chooses you above all else.
When what you serve is not being met with the same appreciation and care, you know it is time to leave the table. Do not keep force feeding your love to someone who is never satisfied.
You choose yourself over love because you loved with all of your heart. You choose yourself over love because you know you did everything you could have done to make it work.
You were stronger than me. Older. What should I have done?
One of the girls giggled back a breathy, “Sorry” and waved her arm over it protectively.
I can’t give in to your failed attempts to reassure me that there’s still hope, because there isn’t. We need to completely dissolve our relationship to the point where I don’t feel bad about deleting your number from my phone.
When you look for work, people will throw out suggestions like, “Why don’t you make a graphic novel?” or, “Why don’t you write a one woman show?” Nobody will ever suggest that you become a bank teller or be responsible for the lives of small children.
If you do cry during movies, take notes because you’re getting on my nerves.
I plan to find my way back to my creative self, or my inner child. What happened to her?