This Is Why I Decided To Forgive You
By Afini Amir
I forgive you.
I forgive you for all of the times you broke your promises. I forgive you for all of the hurt you have caused me. I forgive because that is the only way for me to move forward.
For as long as I dwell in my own sadness and self-pity, I can never truly let go. Who am I to say that you don’t deserve my forgiveness when to err is human? I made mistakes in the past too that I wish people would forgive me for.
Forgiving you means I am letting down my ego. It means that I’ve come to terms with the pain you’ve caused me. It means I’m no longer looking at you as the person who ruined me. I accept that things happen for a reason and that your part in my life was probably to teach me forgiveness.
Forgiving you isn’t easy but it’s definitely sweeter than revenge. Why? Well because I realized I would be no different if I would have caused the same amount of pain to you.
Forgiving you allows me to taste the sweetness of peace in my heart. I no longer need to overwork my muscles when I frown or get agitated just by hearing your name. I no longer wish for you to go through the same phase. I allowed my heart to heal because holding a grudge was detrimental to my soul. I refused to allow the devastation control my future. The painful experience indeed, toughened me up.
It’s a fact that people are always going to hurt you, whether you like it or not. It is pretty much inevitable. They have the ability to disappoint you as much as you have the ability to disappoint the people that you love. I admit that I learnt it the hard way through you. Nonetheless, I hope you’d find comfort as much as I’ve found mine through forgiving you.
Mistakes are part of our growth and that through mistakes we’d hopefully learn and mature.