Top 10 Bleakest Unpublished Blog Posts of 2009

1. “Professionally Bleak” (July 27)

Seems like a straightforward “promotional post” that became infiltrated by feelings of bleakness and then attempted to regain professionalism via “thank you for your time.” I imagine myself typing it with a “zombielike facial expression” and at some point noticing I was typing bleak sentences not relevant to the promotion of SFAA. Seems like I might have deleted many bleak sentences in it before clicking “save as draft.” I sense a level of endurance in this blog post that seems bleak. When reading this blog post I sense the inevitability of myself “succumbing” to bleakness at some point. I’m not exactly sure why I didn’t post this or why I unposted it.

The nonsequitur “i looked in the mirror this morning and saw that my face had a ‘healthy glow'” seems magically bleak. I feel that when bleakness reaches a certain level it automatically transforms into something 70x more powerful than anything within the range of human experience and that the ‘healthy glow’ sentence has previously reached that level.

i am available to be interviewed ‘or something’ re ‘shoplifting from american apparel’

email binky.tabby [at] gmail.com

‘shoplifting from american apparel’ will be released officially sept. 15

discretion will be used re ‘should i do [whatever interview/thing]’

seems that a limited number of interviews placed strategically in selected venues is desirable

i may forward your request to my publisher’s publicist, depending on certain things

i think there are no more ‘advanced reader’s copies’

but i will send people ‘for real’ copies in mid or late august if i feel you ‘for certain’ will review it in a venue that i view as strategically important re my target demographic

i encourage people to review ‘shoplifting from american apparel,’ seems that my long-term financial situation depends ‘heavily’ on what happens the next ~3 months

i encourage people to review it on amazon

my tumblr has become a place where i reblog other people’s ‘tao lin posts’

have been sort of deliberately not thinking about what that means, what effect it will have on my internet persona, what people are thinking about it, if i’m alienating large groups of people

seems i am, in this blog post, continuing ‘deliberately not thinking about [etc.]’

having problems ‘gauging’ level of interest re ‘shoplifting from american apparel’ relative to my previous books

google trends

i looked in the mirror this morning and saw that my face had a ‘healthy glow’

while walking on the sidewalk i thought about the seemingly ‘very large’ number of people that talk shit about organic food, thoughts did not progress beyond what i just typed

sometimes feels like coffee’s effects last 10-30 minutes

can distinctly/honestly remember a time when i drank one green tea and felt ‘really alert’ for 1-2 hours

thank you for your time